The harder I try to be confident, the harder it is.
I gave a little lecture to friends of mine about motherhood in the New Deal and how it relates to current affairs. I didnt do the best job, but I did it. It felt good to follow through, but made me super self conscious. I guess just having done it is good enough.
Things have been good though. I am working for the census and am pretty excited about it. I am going to make a lot of money. Then I am going to buy a wheatgrass juicer.
If Simon gets me his number, I am actually going to call a boy that I don't know and invite him over to our house. This is huge for me, but it is more about reaching out than it is romance.
I'm sorry I missed your presentation! Unfortunately I'm a class-A procrastinator and put all of my week's work off until Sunday. I'm sure you did great though!
ReplyDeleteAnd call that boy!!!
I know the feeling about just wanting to reach out. Last winter I really started caring about myself and taking pride in who I am. I went to the gym 4 times a week. I made new friends and went on dates. It was weird for me to put myself out there. I was pretty smitten with this one guy. We went out a lot and saw each other every day. He had just gotten back from film school in San Fran and although things didn't really work out. I realized that I had for the first time ever- put myself out there.
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy for you!
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ReplyDeleteby last winter I mean 2007-2008.
ReplyDelete(this is marissa.)