lists of late

-i have been feeling really sad for other people lately.
-i cant get enough of space (the final frontier kind).
-i am going to be spending a few days in rochester early next week and am excited about that.
-i want to watch every humphrey bogart movie in existence, but probably wont even get close.
-i often feel like i am living some kind of dream that i dont know how to interpret.
-i think about money too much.
-i dont want to be drinking as much.
-i want to be swimming more.
-i never want to set up another show, ever again (but i will)
-i want to own land, and a house, and as little stuff i dont need as possible.
-i really want to hug certain people.
-i need to write marena a letter.
-and i need to not be inside right now.

a haiku or two,three...

i dont know how to
handle this budding romance.
what am i doing?


(this may come off wrong
i mean it in a good way
i am just so scared)

((i dont remember
what its like to feel this way
you understand, right?))

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i am being too dramatic.

i wish i could articulate the way those canadian folks make me feel.

I have made it almost a week with no emotional melt/breakdowns. This is a good thing.

I am going to Toronto for the weekend, to play with Jordaan and folks for the "Divorce Lawyers I Shaved My Head" album release. I am super excited about seeing all those kids as well as playing music with them and getting that feeling of excitement that it seems I rarely get these days.

I am going to spend the following week in Rochester. Hopefully I will watch copious amounts of Twin Peaks, give more hugs than I know how, and read.read.read.read.

Things are looking up!