I need to start listening to my body.
I have felt like shit for at least the past week. Its near impossible for me to get up in the mornings and my head constantly hurts. I am going to eat only raw foods for at least a few days to try and fix this.It might morph into a juice fast, we'll see.
At the same time, I need to stop thinking so much and let things be however they are going to be. Either I take some form of action in life, or I trust things to turn out naturally. Either way, I need to make a decision regarding it. Action seems to make infinite amounts more sense, but it is undoubtedly the scarier option.
I need to start feeling motivated. I want, rather need, to borrow pat's loop pedal and try to write some fucking clarinet parts/songs. I will give myself the summer to do this and if I can't pull a single one off I will have to start hating myself. This seems like good motivation.
Summer being here is going to be really good for me. For everyone. I want to ride my bike everywhere, go swimming, hiking, stare at stars in the mountains, and never even think about wearing long pants.
Our garden is looking outrageously nice. It feels like we will be eating food from it any day now (maybe any week now..), and that feels fucking wonderful.