i feel very frustrated with looking for/the idea of apartments.
i have never lived alone and would be totally willing to try but i will simply never be able to afford it.
everything feels far more real than it ever has. why cant i just go back to paying $220 for rent and living with all of my best friends? ...i fucking blew it.
i am working more than i ever have in my whole life and i still cant afford to live the way i want. great.